Our Conscious Selves

This is what the whole of our naturally
able to be selves has been reduced to.

Even though that's all we have at our
use up front - we can suffice with it.

However - we are up against it inside
and outside of ourselves.
You have to manage on your own.
There is no already established about.

We are not of much use one to another.

According to the way I see things
we would kill one another off to boot.

What you can do

Chances are - it makes no difference
whether you are a - phychological or
physical being - your conscious self -
will work in the same way - roughly.

You can "incorporate" outside of you
to inside of you.

We can't all be - the great leader of the way.

We can all - however - see everything -
in relation to ourselves.

You relate inside of you AND you relate
outside of you - to your self.

As you relate to yourself - you make room
in your conscious self - for it all in you.

"Out around" will want you to "blast off".

However - you will need to keep things in
"perspective".

You will find you can "delegate" thoughts
of things - to where they go.

You will become - sure minded in yourself.
You may be at a loss outside of you BUT
inside of yourself you will be of sure mind.

Who knows what you will go on to become.

The things is - is to see it all - in relation
to yourself as you go on being.
You will become whatever it is that you become.
You will have your own birds-eye view.

You don't need to be everything and
everything don't need to be you.

You do need to see everything
in relation to yourself.

You go along in your own time and
everything else will arrive in due course.

There is no "everything" allready and
you won't get anywhere - anytime soon.

You will find it's - slow going in the now.

You will of course - be impeded
every of your way.

However

As long as you see - in relation to yourself
nothing else will matter.

Successfully doing so - you will find -
you open up in yourself - to accomadate it all.

Failing to manage on your way so
upfront - you will see - lucking out.

Someday you will see "out around"
laying in wait - for you. Until then
you will be - blind-sided.

You will also have to manage
every of your way - on your own.
(is a - no weak links - thing)

Is an uphill battle.
The battle is ours.

Our conscious selves - as we go about to be
are the last vestige.

Everything else is being used
to work against us.

You don't have to be - the one and only.
"Out around" will "bill" you that way though.
They call it - megalomania.
They also refer to you as - paranoid - schizophrenic.
Who knows what else they will call you.
These terms will surface as they come out
with more labels for us.
They will also have their "prizes" for the way you look.
You will find "out around"
infiltrated through it all.
(before and after)

You will find - it's all in relating to yourself.
Of course you will have to be - within reason.
It will open room in you though.

You will also have to manage in the
day to day world as well. To support yourself.

I drifted around from job to job
until the mid 1980's then I was "migrant"
worker until the early 1990's then
I was outright freeloading until 2001
where I was self-employed until Nov 2008.
Now my self-employment is gone.
I currently have no intentions of
starting all over again in the work-a-day world.

This all started with me somewhere around 1955.
It's now 2010. I will be 55 in another 6 days.
All kinds of stuff has gone on but "out around"
never locked me up and threw away the keys.
I was supposedly a time or two imprisoned but
that was in the "not here" - not in known time.
Most of the "not here" was spent in "no-time".
"No-time" is like - in stasis.
Throughout it all "out around" had it like
time doesn't go on without me - however
that's not really so - even though all around me
shows no signs of been without me - as I go on.
Which could very well be limited to local vicinity.

I'm expecting "out around" doesn't want any
direct contact with me as I go on.
So around me - is expected to - slink and flit.
Will be surprized to find out different.
This could very well be locally contained.
Something like quarantined from further around.
Nobody knows what it's like outside of their
immediate vicinity at any given time.
That vicinity has always been - up close.